Last Goodbye to Cousin Brother

Still alot of question marks in our hearts following with all the depression caused by this news.

The moment they nailed his coffin, I feel extremely sad and cant hold my tears. This will be the last time I see you because you will be cremate later on.

Seeing the coffin and the follow by all the ceremony, I really can't hold my tears and keep crying. Why would this happen? You are a so happy go lucky guy with laughter everytime. You are so healthy and smart and there's should have no possibility for you to reach this step. 

Seeing your corpse lying in the coffin, everyone one of us wish to wake you up so much but we can't. We are so powerless to do that! Why you can't wake up! Why you will reach this step? Why is this happening? What is happening in the hospital? We all know you will definitely not commit suicide. 

http://www.nanyang.com.my/node/437032?tid=460

'死者的舅舅今日在丧府受媒体询问时说：“家人知道发生什么事，但不便透露，总之家人不相信他是自杀。”

他说，一切交给警方及加影医院调查。"

How much can we believe the policeman ability? SDR case? Still think he commit suicide? 

Today is the saddest moment because his remain ashes has been pour into sea. Goodbye cousin brother. This is the last goodbye. You will be missed dearly by all of us.

Still, I can't believe this is happening. :( 

RIP Danny Lee

Early morning my mum told me that he just leave the world. I thought my mum use the wrong word, suppose to leave malaysia or what. And I was so shocked when she meant he passed away. My mind said, NO WAY!

He is only in the age of 29 and doing a houseman in Hospital Kajang. Why could things happen in such a sudden way? What is really happening there?

None of us know because report still havent out yet and newspapers are accusing him for commit suicide. WHAT??!! Report is not out yet and yet the darn china press printed his photo on the 1st page of newspaper and what's more, they put his photo so big and on top of the Malaysia Sultan installation photo. Moreover, they wrote so big "Commit Suicide" in chinese! So big that they scare others can't c it? and What more? they proudly printed “独家报道”. This china press has no conscience and yet feel like very proud for having that news!

This is such a cruel news for all the Lee family and because of profit, they printed it out, where is your conscience!

Still, I can't accept that he actually left us. I turn to become so moody and wish to scream out loud. Don't feel like doing anything and keep thinking why would this happen, why so sudden, why no sign, what happen to him, pity my aunty uncle, pity his wife, still unable to accept the fact. I guess all my siblings should have the same thought as me when we lie on our own bed room this night.

I stay up till 4am only went to bed. Even it's hard for me to believe it yet. The feeling is hard to describe, as if I wish I could have the power to change the time so that he wont leave us, really wish he could stay alive and that's out of my hand.

Maybe this is too sudden and this is the first time I c someone close with me passed away. I started to fear death. I scare everything now. I scare by any time, some one would leave the world without saying goodbye again. 

Dear cousin bro, you are such a cheerful and friendly person. You brought joy and happiness to your wife and your family in this world. You will certainly be missed. May your soul rest in peace.

Nightmare Yet Luckiest Day

Yesterday was a totally nightmare and also luckiest day in my life.

Early morning when I woke up, I felt abit headache and after half an hour, I can't stand it anymore and so took panadol soluble from my housemate li hong and plan to skip class and rest in house.

This pain has been occurred quite often in this few weeks. I know Panadol can't save me, but i have no other medicine more. So just took it hope that it can relief my pain. Turn out, it's helpless towards my head pain and it make me sweat alot and very cold.

So, after waking up myself at 1pm, I walk out from our house and saw that our gate has been dismantel and put aside, the wooden door is opened too. I thought must be the gate is spoilt and that's why just now heard alot banging the gate sound. and then i saw the outside gate is open too. I thought, who forgot to close the door.. hmm.. without 2nd thought i continue to do my other stuff with my cold and weak body and headache. I thought if go out have a walk could help.

When i was out Yanny told me our house has been broken into by burglar! and there i start to think is it that happen when the gate get bang?

everything seems getting more logic if i stitch up all the blur blur puzzle while i was sleeping that time. first i heard wan thing open my door, i can sure is her because the way she open the door and also after the door close, i heard her motor bike start with very loud noise. and heard she close the gate after open the door.

then i heard alot our noise on our outside and inside gate. i thought is the guys (housemate) driving out and in. then i heard alot banging sound of our inside gate door. that time i thought maybe the gate is difficult to be locked. then i fall asleep again. and don't for how long, I heard another room door opening sound. this open door sound sound like some stranger because it is opened softly and close softly. i was awake awhile that time. and then i was too weak to turn myself to see who is it. (my face facing other side). i thought, maybe is kai xiang or hong hann or ah shun or any guy from my house want to find yanny or what.they seldom open our door, so maybe that y the door is open softly. And they close the door softly because i was sleeping.

after confirming is burglary, i really thanks god because i was sick that time, else if i saw is the burglar, they afraid i recognize them and kill me on the spot. I'm really lucky and grateful i was sick and escaped from this incident.

Night time, my head is super super pain and my body super weak till i found myself very difficult to move my body. wan thing gave me active fast panadol also cant relieve my pain. and so, my family fetch me back and see doctor. So, now i know i have migraine sickness. no wonder all d while when i headache, panadol always couldn't help me. Never thought myself could have migraine.

now i'm feeling better. really glad all the bad things has been passed.THANKS GOD! and i'm sorry for my housemate for their lost over their laptop. 

Society Lesson

Today driving kembara to KL alone and drive around to do some errands.

While driving, suddenly has a lot of thought came to my mind.

First, feel happy that now I only need to spend rm1.90 to Pergi Balik Kajang-KL since part of toll has been demolish.

Then start thinking of some things that I learnt. Some bad experience.

I use to pour out my woes to friends that I trust and believe. I guess most ppl do that. But in real world, no one would keep your words as if theirs. Because one day, when A found another more treasurable B, A would sacrifice your secrets in exchange to be closer with B. There, my heart get wretch because I had been sacrificed.

Then, I start to think, why would I always ask certain ppl out though I know they always turn me down? That's because I really want to go out with them! If u r not invited and ppl tell u "I thought u r not free" or what crap of reason, its only some reason to make u feel better or maybe, in optimist mind, he/she really thought u r busy (I think optimist mind doesn't apply to first few invitation case).

Then back to home sweet home and met my brother, sisters, parents.. There my heart feel warm again. Furthermore, sister treat makan Asam Laksa, snogurt and starbucks.. Along with Joey, my mind back to peace.

My Valentine 2012

This year will be the second time for me to celebrate Valentine with Eric. I thought I have told him I don't want flower, bear n chocolate during valentine because I hate all of them. Yet, on that day when he fetch me from my house, he give me a bouquet of flower. My first thought " WHAT! Flower again! I thought I have make myself very clear that I dislike flower!"

Then he ask me stand beside his car, n then he gave me another two things. Mickey Mouse doll and a big Valentine card! I become contradict.. I do love Mickey Mouse alot, but I hate doll because I think they are troublesome as I dont know where to put them and I don't hug them to sleep. Most importantly, I hate to put doll on my bed because I need to tidy them everyday and they steal part of my bed. But really happy to receive this Mickey Mouse doll because most of the time, the Mickey Mouse shape always mishap and not origin. But this one looks perfect! It's a pirate version Mickey Mouse

Then we have our dinner at Yu Zu KLCC branch. We have this conversation before when talk about valentine dinner. Because Valentine is more western culture and usually people dine in in western restaurant. But I told him I hate western food and I would prefer to eat Chinese or Japanese cuisine during Valentine. I don't mind my dinner is dim sum. hehe..

8 Pieces of sushi which cost RM32

A set of Bento cost RM38

 We didnt order much. Just the above two sets + a soft shell crab handroll which cost RM10 or RM12. Can't remember. I love the sushi set because all of the is unique and delicious! Trust me, you wont be regret eating that sushi set.
For the Bento set, there's a bowl of soba mee and a bowl of rice. So, we share togather. The black tea pot contain a very tasty soup and I love the soup very much.

This meal cost around RM97++ and we are sooooo full! I think I only manage to eat 35% of them

Godiva Chocolate

After dinner, we gave me a new gift - a Mickey Mouse Polo T. My thought is, oh my.. how come the colour of the shirt is the same as the one I bought for him? Yea, coincidentally, the shirt I bought for him is same as the one he bought for me!!
Then we then head to Putrajaya. and then he gave me a new surprise again when we have arrived there. A set of Body Shop cream (I still dont know what cream are those) and GODIVA!!
Last year we have Baskin Robbin Ice Cream Cake to celebrate our 1st Valentine. This time he bought chocolate! And he know I only eat Godiva though I rarely eat them since it's very pricey! Well, most of my friends know I hate chocolate because they always make me sick after consume them. Beside I hate the sweetness of most chocolate. For Godiva, I usually eat their high percentage dark chocolate.

Four corner with different percentage of dark chocolate and the chocolate contain different things which I like it very much . Middle are only plain chocolate

 Even if this chocolate goes cheap, I don't think I will buy it much cause, personally, I really phobia of chocolate. hahaha..I never thought this box of chocolate cost RM100+ INSANE!

Then on the way back, we have some photo shooting in Putrajaya with the background of some kind Marathon event. Then we went back home

On the way back, I told him this flower is the most waste of money. Then he said, " Do you want to use it to exchange a new gift then?" I start feeling scare.. he prepare another gift?

And so.. I say yes... Then he grab something hiding behind the chair and poop!

My very first Ralph Lauren

YES! A Ralph Lauren Polo T!!! I almost faint that time. I was planning to buy one in USA in future and now he bought me this!!! OMG!!! Seriously, I have never enter Ralph Lauren shop in Malaysia before because this is totally out of my league and I wont buy it here either..

OMG.. Until now I still haven't wear it. Guess I'm just gonna frame it up! It's a Black Polo T with a sharp Purple big horse as the badge. Deep V polo T. I wonder in what event I will wear it out.. kekeke..

My Valentine Gift by Eric Sia

Last year, I have this "marathon gift" by him too.. and this year he gave me this marathon again. It's full of surprise and excitement. I really appreciate for what he has done to me especially he purposely took half day leave to do all this arrangement.

That's all for my Valentine 2012. Wish all of you have a happy moment with your beloved friends/partner/family.

Lorong Seratus Tahun @ The Scott Garden, Old Klang Road

As for Valentine's eve, I wen to yum cha with my coursemate + housemate cause all of us are so bored and luckily Li Hong willing to fetch us go~ I have never been to The Scott Garden, but I do pass by that place during night time. And I remember this place has a lot yum cha or Pub there. So Google and direct them to go. Pretty near UM. 

When we arrive, it's hard to find a parking place. After few minutes haunting for parking space, we finally found one, but it was difficult to park in. But we manage to take some time to park in though we blocked out the road and lots of car are waiting us to park in. Hehe..

At The Scott Garden, I saw this Ah beng steamboat restaurant. Heard my friend said that this steamboat is opened by Ah beng. Saw the menu, Buffet dinner would be RM31++ for each adult. We didnt dine in here but just take a picture with ah beng poster

Ah beng poster. Personally I dont like him, so I post this! hehe

Then we saw a lot pub there. And finally we choose a more silent environment place to yum cha, which is Lorong Seratus Tahun. 百年路. This cafe is like normal cafe. Mainly on Penang cuisine. Price is normal.

I ordered a Penang Fried Kuey Teow Mee because I was a little hungry that time. Besides, I also ordered a warm water because my cough still not recovered yet. So they gave me a warm water with a slice of lime. Some restaurant did this for free of charge but this Lorong Seratus Tahun charged me for RM1. Sometimes really don't understand why they charge so expensive for a drinking water only. Stingy boss! Nando is worst! They dont offer a cup of warm water, instead they ask you to buy their bottle of drinking water. duh..

Captured by some worker. I think this is the best shot

 After that, we have some photo shooting around the place and then went to second round because they all are hungry too. So, Li Hong fetch us to eat Nasi Lemak at Maplet. This nasi lemak is famous because it's cheap n big quantity. RM2 only!

Photo shooting around the area.

My thesis partner miss Lai

Maplet Nasi Lemak. 

The Scott Garden

I think I will come to this place again. I like this place! 

Content and Appreciate

Today I walk to dental face and the walk towards HEP alone. Throughout the whole journey, I was too bored to walk alone and started to think about my life.

First, I suddenly feel very content and appreciate my life. I have a great family, siblings, friends.. If I have problem, I could seek help from them.

I feel very satisfied for what I have own now as I'm wearing my A|X polo Tee, Levis jeans, Hp slipper, Nike bottle, UEM sponsored bag.. People would thought I'm wasting money for my luxury and start jealous or condemn behind me. At first, I'm quite sad about it, but time after time, I think I shouldn't give a damn on what they thought. I enjoy and happy with it is enough.

And this lead to my next thought. "We can't simply share our happiness". This is because you don't know your listeners will feel happy for you or jealous of you. That's why, we need to find right person to share our happiness. That's why I think I should stop sharing picture in my facebook and post some of my photo in my blog. I guess this will be reader/listener choice. If you are happy for me, off course I'm very happy too, but if the opposite, you can choose to not read it too.

Undeniable, I like to tell my friend what I have owned not because I want they feel jealous of me, but because I just too happy to express out my happiness and hoping they will happy for me too. And this make me forget to care about their feelings. So, I should have just keep all my happiness to share with certain friends and family who really happy for me, and off course people who still read my infamous blog.

I really appreciate for what I have own now and this really make me feel better and happier. Life should be simple and not that complicated.

Lastly, I hope I will always remember this feeling, because it would cheer up my whole day instead!

CHEERS~