Nicole Kidman - Unusual Way [NINE OST]

In a very unusual way,
one time I needed you.
In a very unusual way,
you were my friend.

Maybe it lasted a day,
maybe it lasten an hour,
but somehow it will never end.

In a very unsual way,
I think I´m in love with you.
In a very unusual way,
I want to cry.

Something inside me goes weak,
something inside me surrenders,
and you´re the reason why,
you´re the reason why.

You don´t know what you do to me,
you don´t have clue.
You can´t tell what it´s like to be me looking at you,
It scares me so that I can hardly speak.

In a very unusual way,
I owe what I am to you.
Tough at times
it appears I won´t stay,
I never go.
Special to me in my life,
since the first day I met your.
How could I ever forget you,
once you had touched my soul?
In a very unusual way,
you´ve made me whole.

Same shoes?

recently notice that my coursemate has broke up wif her gf.
from what i have seen in fb, i guess:
the girl request to broke up
with reason "want to concentrate in study"
or dunno whatever reason
until my coursemate still believe that she and he still have chance
and he's counting day by day for the return of the girl

hmm.. let me recall back my previous dates..
as far as i know,
in this situation, usually there's no way to get back
i believe
if you really love somebody
you wouldnt break up with d others due to any funny or "for ur own good" reason
all those reasons are just let yourself feel better

i so wanted to tell my coursemate to giveup
but i'm not sure whether we r in the same shoes
after a year plus
i only realize that time the break up reason is just a stupid excuse
that i believed so much
he's totally a jerk a liar!
i know, he and me will never be friend anymore

stop thinking.. argh~ study for final dong!

#100 post:My 21st birthday celebration with coursemate

Jia Nee Bithrday Celebration at Hostel

NEW HAIRSTYLE

i got my new hairstyle now.. hoho..
everybody is laughing at me.. and looking at me like i'm a freak.
lol..
wanna see my new hairstyle?
come n find me lo..
keke..
aint going to upload my picture
:P

Disappointed 21st Birthday Celebration with Family

this weekend, wt, hy and yanny came to my house and stay over9.
After that, my family told me they going to celebrate my birthday at saturday night. at first, dad said treat me eat at a simple restaurant situated in Bangi. Then I was a bit shock and straight away ask him why dont celebrate at hotel. :( his answer is funny. he said because next weekend we whole family going to my cousin wedding dinner. and he will giv big ang pow for them and consider celebrate my birthday too. =.= ..

So, i told them just do steamboat at home then ok lo.. coz i remmeber last time my 17th birthday wes celebrated with steamboat too.. and that's so much fun!!but 2nd sis recommend us to go mahkota cheras eat steamboat.Thought it will be a nice place, who know, the food just not as tasty as the menu. some even not fresh :(.. kinda lost appetite and try to be happy.

then my 2nd bro make me feel piss too.. coz it has been two years he celebrate my birthday without really care. he's like just come and attend my birthday ceremony. no heart at all..this year even worse, didnt get me birthday cake or treat me watch movie or a present!

Secret recipe cake again. didnt feel much more excite and happy than last few years, coz kinda boring with secret recipe cake edi.. after all, feel like it's a cheap cake where i can get it easily. :( that cake was bought by my sis's bf with my favorite flavor, New York Cheese. then my 2nd bro ask why he didnt buy durian cake for me(tat's my very favorite cake after taste it with my 2nd bro at damasara jaya coffee shop, tat durian cake is hand-made by the tau keh). my 2nd bro even giv him d business card and ask him to contact  d boss if 1 2 buy. deep in my heart, i was thinking:" why u r d 1 ask ppl to buy for me? arent u have the responsible to buy for me! wtf bro r u! so sucks!my sis's bf have no responsible to buy cake for me ok! stupid hell!"
in fact, i quite wish to have a cake from the Lavender shop which my sis bought for my mum n nephew birthday cake.

after eating, thinking to sing k or watch movie. then go look for movie. who know all already full. and sing k? rm46++ per person. and there are 10 of us there. so.. takkan we paid rm500+ to sing k mer.. i rather ask them treat me eat la.. end up, all balik aso..

my very sucks 21st birthday celebration with family end up so sucks. make me no mood to celebrate my birthday anymore. maybe i will just simply spend over 7th of april.

By the way i really glad my 2nd sis make d effort to ask my siblings(except my 2nd bro) to buy a necklace from lazo diamond. a very beautiful necklace! and i aso receive my earlier birthday present from my elder sis which is an ipod touch.

feel bad when i compare my previous birthday with this year. really disappointing.
18th: steamboat with family + eye on malaysia with friends
19th: Haagen Daaz Birthday Cake from my 2nd bro
20th: Hotel meal + hotel cake cost about RM1k
21st: boring steamboat

Failure

It's been a time for me to get away from his shadow
but my mission failed all the time

today, i failed again. my heart is really in pain.tomorrow is my exam, how am i going to get through this.

there's so many question i want to ask him
but i know it's a stupid action for me to ask
because i will never believe him anymore
i still love him though

there's too many scar left on me
and i feel that
i cant love anymore
i cant move on anymore
coz those scar always remind every moment we have had

i'm a failure

First weekend at hostel after 2 or 3 semesters

today is my first weekend staying college after 2 semesters. have an 8 hour chat with friends(sl,hy(em), wt,rf) 6pm-10pm at DU, 10pm-12am++ at Murni, 12-2am at room. very fun though.. but d last part, recall back my memories with you again..



I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me, me, me