Sunday, March 28, 2010


It's been a time for me to get away from his shadow
but my mission failed all the time

today, i failed again. my heart is really in pain.tomorrow is my exam, how am i going to get through this.

there's so many question i want to ask him
but i know it's a stupid action for me to ask
because i will never believe him anymore
i still love him though

there's too many scar left on me
and i feel that
i cant love anymore
i cant move on anymore
coz those scar always remind every moment we have had

i'm a failure

Saturday, March 27, 2010

First weekend at hostel after 2 or 3 semesters

today is my first weekend staying college after 2 semesters. have an 8 hour chat with friends(sl,hy(em), wt,rf) 6pm-10pm at DU, 10pm-12am++ at Murni, 12-2am at room. very fun though.. but d last part, recall back my memories with you again..

I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me, me, me

Sunday, March 21, 2010

[Share] Laura Pausini - It's Not Goodbye

This song was introduced by my x-roommate. that time i simply just love the song becaue it's nice. But now, whenever i listen this song, it remind me.. the lyrics somehow true and somehow not. but the depressing melody best to describe my mood.

i really miss you. sorry, recently my firewall break again. TT

And what if I never kiss your lips again
Or feel the touch of your sweet embrace
How would I ever go on
Without you there's no place to belong

Well someday love is gonna lead you back to me
But 'til it does I'll have an empty heart
So I'll just have to believe
Somewhere out there you thinking of me

Until the day I'll let you go
Until we say our next hello
It's not goodbye
'Til I see you again
I'll be right here rememberin' when
And if time is on our side
There will be no tears to cry
On down the road
There is one thing I can't deny
It's not goodbye

You'd think I'd be strong enough to make it through
And rise above when the rain falls down
But it's so hard to be strong
When you've been missin' somebody so long

It's just a matter of time I'm sure
But time takes time and I can't hold on
So won't you try as hard as you can
To put my broken heart together again

Until the day I'll let you go
Until we say our next hello
It's not goodbye
'Til I see you again
I'll be right here rememberin' when
And if time is on our side
There will be no tears to cry
On down the road
There is one thing I can't deny
It's not goodbye

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Putrajaya Hot Air Balloon

Today after morning class, then sis come n fetch me and go to try her gown(for her fren's wedding). after that, we went to MetroPlaza and bought my birthday gift.Thanks to my bro,sis and mum^^ happy and love u all!

when back home, is about evening edi, so decided to go putrajaya. ask all my friends, all busy for exam, so i decided to go my own. where are my family members? all have their own function lo

Drive very fast and reach there fast. park car then walk quite a distance to there. u sure think i'm insane coz i go alone. yeah.. who cares..
at first found the field with alot hot air balloons. but the authority put a fence and not letting the public go near the balloon. at tat position, just not that fun. so i walk around and then found a fence edi buka by public. then i faster curi curi go inside. haha.. d feeling is different when u get near. c d ang mo ppl burn d heat out n feel the temperature. :P

this is the position where i'm behind d fence. the center hot air balloon actually just 1 unit,,but wif alot balloon as decoration

if u can see clearly, d left side abit purple is star wars head
after i curi curi masuk, the view just so much different! keke..

alot alot alot alot ppl there! and alot alot alot DSLR there with the tripod! haha.. so wish i can get into their picture.. :P
the most special hot air balloon is the star wars head lo. other juz now with their picture
then we are being chased out coz we dun hav d pass. then i find another spot outside d fence. saw a Rela duty there. he seems boring, so i go and chat chat with him since both of us aso alone. haha.. then i ask him curi curi let me in to see clearly la.. i told him i'm alone ma, no ppl will notice de la.. then he agree lo.. XD
too many balloon~ cant squeeze all into my N73.. XD

then when almost d time, all balloon start fire up and follow d music tempo. very nice.

fireworks brings and end to this beautiful night. I MISS THE FIREWORKS! so colourful and many many pattern.. too bad my N73 cant capture any good things back.

this one is a tethered ballon. let public have a limit ride. RM10 per pax. the ticket sold very fast
test the fire.. he want to open his balloon beside this star wars head

fireworks very nice..but it's not that nice in here. >.<

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Sunway Night

yesterday went to Sunway with my friend. Didnt know that Sunway look sooooo beautiful at night(cause most of the time i went there during day time). The CNY decoration still havent change. It's really beautiful and pretty in the entire area.Actually wanted to go there yum cha only, but before go back, want to go sunway jalan jalan(that time about 10pm).. so we reach the ice rink and saw some people having Ice Hockey competition.
Game just started

Have no idea what competition is this. though that time is already late, yet, there were some people stay back to watch the competition. From my view, I hardly can see who are there, but I'm pretty sure all is ang mo kia..Their skating skill really impressing. Suddenly make me feel like going down the ice rink and skate freely~~ weeee~~Their speed is fast as the ball being sweep real fast. when they chase d ball, they ski very fast, when the ball change direction, they can easily make a smooth turning back to continue chase the ball. Either they make a sudden stop(chan bing), or a smooth turning back.
cant see the ball.. they fighting for d ball wif the hockey stick

While I watch it, i feel so qi gek cause everything is so fast. Every time watch at TV, feeling nothing difference. But when you get to live, hahaha.. the feeling is different! And I can feel how dangerous is this game since all the player wearing alot big big clothes. ^^

Suddenly make me feel like want to take some course to learn ice skating :P

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Coursemate Outing - Petaling Street

After recommended by klh about there's a dealer shop at petaling street, twins, me,wt,hy,hr,lh,and sy decided to go and have a look

We heard that somebody bought a dress for only rm20 there. And there's a plenty of cheap dress there.

so 8 of us take taxi there which cost us around rm2.50 per person(from um to petaling street). then we start hunting around there. hmm.. Actually i'm not gonna buy any dress coz last time b4 new year, i bought a lot dress with my sis at a boutique shop edi. so.. nah.. mayb just go petaling street jalan jalan and look around(as i really seldom hang out in this area).

Petaling street.. weeee~~~
weather is hot but luckily some of the shop are air conditioned and i'm not really sweat alot. Then suddenly recall back that i might need a boot for my coming trip.. hmm.. then start hunting for boot, but not much choice. I like the pair with violet colour and it's not consider a high type boot. after 30% discount, it's about rm56. quite cheap for a boot, but i still have not confidence to buy it, coz i get used to consult by my sister before buying things. Too bad just now she has meeting and i cant video call n ask her opinion. maybe next time will shop around and look for a better one.
The violet boot
twins bought a lot of stuff. one of them manage to get a dress and some clothes there. i just tried out two dresses. one is yan xian last time wore(but not fit me. sux) and another one which is the picture below. but it aso sux if i wear it like a dress, coz my thigh is toooooo big.. shame shame.. monkey shame your name.. booooooo.. i can still remember, when i wore it out let them comment.. they keep wah wah wah.. n it's like attract other ppl look at me.. gosh.. *blush blush* so pai seh la.. if i hav yx leg then good lo.. XD

upper part look ok, but down part.. uh uh uh!! there's a elephant leg there

so, at d end of the day, i didnt buy anything. window shopping harr... my back is so pain after walking for about 4hours there.. silly huh?

by the way, it's a nice outing.

Monday, March 8, 2010

Complicated Feeling

Recently easily get headache and always lack of sleep
Feel really very stress whenever back to hostel
Cant find any peaceful moment.
Even play FB make me feel guilty
Too many things bothering me, or I'm the one who cant manage all the things?

1)Mid Sem exam make me pressure. why? usually very relax, but this semester every subject is very difficult. Moreover, my coursemate all so hardworking, they give me really a lot pressure

2)I cant concentrate to study nor do homework/assignment. Because keep headache and the weather is hot. Moreover, keep thinking of holiday to go travel with my friend. I need MONEY $$$, it's gonna cost me alot to travel this time. I need work work work! Envy those kids born with a golden spoon in their mouth. They can study private uni, go play with friend without bothering MONEY problems.. Their life sure much less pressure

3)Can't sleep well everynight, weather is too hot now. Every night also sweat and I have to bath lots of time. Cant have enough time to sleep make my whole day tired and sleepy. Yet my mind still have to force myself study. STRESS!

4)Assignment and exam and presentation just never let me go. WTF! I'm tired la.. Give me a break! I'm suffocated now. I need go out to find OXYGEN!

5)I want to go holiday. I'm too excited with the coming trip. I have no mood to study and do homework. Everyday was floating around, and doing something which I have no idea what am I doing. God Know..

6)I still miss you. I'm tired missing you all the time. What's wrong with me? Why can't I just live in a happy life? Why I want to trap myself in a dark box?


Saturday, March 6, 2010

Post 90 - NINE movie

Never thought that I'll continue blogging till #90 post. hahaha...

yesterday watch a movie name NINE. that time i have no idea at all what's the movie all about,just simply wanna go to enjoy cinema(i love watch movie in cinema). So pick up this movie. Then only started understand what's the movie about.

Definitely wont regret for me to watch this movie. So artistic and sophiscated. Every dance and song are amazing.Costume is sexy but relevent! Maybe some people will think I just pretend to enjoy, but truely from the bottom of my heart, I LOVE THIS!

I love the way they speak. It's kinda weird, but I love to listen Britain english especially on their old time. The way they speak are classic and let me feel that they are so arrogant and supercilious. But I LOVE THIS!

I would never denied, Italian or French song usually will fill with more feeling in it. The way they sing is incomparable. Always touch my soul.

After watching this movie, I wish I can learn French or Italian language now. ^^

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Change Name

seems like i getting fedup to write things about my college anymore..
i should change my blog name..
what should it be?

today miss you again. helpless...hope to see you again, but i know you dont. =(